tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68817567511229222642024-02-08T05:39:11.120-08:00THE CAROLE ANNE JONES BLOGBEEN THERE AND BACK.CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.comBlogger66125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-65079282918516098972013-04-15T01:12:00.000-07:002013-04-15T01:21:02.158-07:00DO IT NOW!!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="background-color: #444444; color: #eeeeee; font-family: 'Museo Sans', sans-serif; font-size: 15.454545021057129px; line-height: 23.99147605895996px;">I did an online test to see if I still had depression. I have weaned myself off Prozac over the last few months and am at sixes and sevens as to my condition. Sluggish is a good description, so I did the test. This is what I got:-</span><br />
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<i><b style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">Dysthymia: Very High</span></b></i></div>
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<i><b style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">Bipolar Disorder: Extremely High</span></b></i></div>
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<i><b style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">Cyclothymia: High</span></b></i></div>
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<span style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">I don't know what <b><i>Dysthymia</i></b> or <i><b>Cyclothymia </b></i>are so I guess I'll look them up.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">As all of us with mental health issues know, there is no help for us from the NHS. Mental health units have been closing all over, so what to do? Well, I have studied psychology, mostly child psychology, so I have a grounding - I'm gonna have to help myself. </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">Apathy is my main enemy and one I have recently started to take on. I want to do things but have a problem ACTUALLY doing them. "I'll do that in a minute," is a constant refrain in my mind; of course that 'minute' seldom comes. So I've started telling myself sternly to "DO IT NOW!" And I'm trying to make myself complete one task at a time., otherwise I have lots of half finished tasks on my hands, which leads to frustration and more apathy. </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">Today my outdoor task is to go to the loan shop and borrow some cash, get some shopping and put £30 in bank to cover outgoings. I'm hoping the DWP sort my money out by next week or I'm up the creek without a paddle, in a sinking boat with only a colander to bail me out... </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">However, I'll worry about that next week if I have to. I am not allowing myself to worry about things I can't do anything about. For now I have to print a bank statement and go get some cash.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #444444;"><span style="color: #eeeeee;">Guess I'd better DO IT NOW!!!</span></span></div>
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CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-74652794862182142232013-04-09T12:10:00.000-07:002013-04-09T12:10:06.541-07:00FIRST BLOG AFTER GIVING UP PROZAC<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I decided a couple of months ago to give up Prozac. I'd had some blood tests and although I was clear of all the nasties, there appeared to be a question on anaemia. But I have a good diet, I thought, why would I be anaemic? I decided to do some research.</div>
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I went through all the various things that could cause anaemia. I found out that Prozac, or Fluoxetine, can cause the lining and walls of the intestines to become thin. I sometimes take ant-inflammatories which irritate me too. Together this could cause bleeding and, hence, anaemia. I decided to give up the Prozac. For a month I cut down from two to one 500mg capsules per day, Then I cut to one every two days, then every three, then stopped.</div>
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I didn't have any problems with withdrawal, except for sweats. I still get the odd one. I found myself very tired after a couple of weeks without the Prozac, and my output and concentration were down, even for me. I couldn't understand why. My PTSD meant I had now forgotten all about the Prozac. But I was worried about the anaemia. I drank stout for the iron and had red wine instead of white, ate lots of garlic. I stopped taking the anti-inflammatories and took codeine instead. But without the Prozac in my bloodstream the codeine did not make me speed, as it used to, it made me more tired. </div>
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I have had four appointments with my doctor over the last six weeks, none of which I have managed to attend as yet. So I have done all of this without medical supervision. I guess I'm rather pleased with myself.</div>
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Ok, so I still have a lot of problems, but I feel more alive too, rather than one step removed from life.</div>
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I think I can do this life thing at last, do it myself. This makes me happy. </div>
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CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-52990397970094303792012-07-23T22:50:00.000-07:002012-07-23T22:51:05.872-07:00FISHY COFFEE?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">Yesterday I poached salmon in a pint of milk, which I strained and used to make mushroom and spring onion sauce. There was about a quarter of a pint of the hot milk left. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">I picked up the jug with the hot poaching milk in it to empty it. Then I thought, 'No! Don't throw it away! Its hot milk. Put it in coffee.' </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">Pleased with myself. I returned to the sauce, stirring it til it thickened. I ran through the recipe mentally as I did so... </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">A light bulb went on in my head (and, funnily enough, it was slow like the new type). </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">'OH MY GOD!!!' I realised what I was planning for the poaching milk, 'I was gonna make COFFEE with it!!!' </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">I quickly grabbed the jug of milk and emptied it down the sink in order to avoid this error permanently. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">Phew! That was close!</span><br />
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<br /></div>CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-17578476823287196352012-07-21T02:01:00.002-07:002012-07-21T02:08:22.519-07:00BRUE LIZRA<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">I went to the corner shop the other morning for some cigarette papers. (I know, I'm giving up tobacco, but I still like the odd spliff.) I had a few pipes in order to face outside and toddled off on my quest. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">"Blue Rizla" I kept repeating to myself, "Blue Rizla." </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">I got to the shop; so far so good... "Blue Rizla."</span></span><br />
<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">Then I got distracted by four Andrex rolls for £1.99. I stopped to pick a pack up, noticed a large bottle of Fairy liquid for £1.29 and got that too. I was pleased with my bargains and the fact that I was relaxed and not at all anxious. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">As I put my shopping on the counter, I remembered the Blue Rizla that I needed and tried to ask for it.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">"Can I have some brue..." </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;"> I smiled and tried again, " A pack of brue..." </span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #444444; color: white;">I couldn't say blue!!!</span>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">My mouth wanted to say Brue Lizra! I giggled remembering the old joke. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">"Erm, brue..." </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">"Brue..." </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">The woman serving was just looking at me with incomprehension. I gesticulated at the cigarette papers with both hands saying, weakly, "Brue?!</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">She laughed as she finally understood and got me the papers. </span></span><br />
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</div>CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-38692113410370809782012-05-02T02:11:00.000-07:002012-05-02T02:13:39.017-07:00SHELL LIFE by C.A. Jones 2012<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">Inside the shell, </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">Lies the vulnerable flesh; </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">The soft,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">Easily damaged</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">Core. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">Inside the shell, </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">Safe from harm,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">Til you open the door.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; line-height: 18px;">And open the door </span></span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; line-height: 18px;"><span style="background-color: #444444; color: white; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">You must, because<br />Inside the shell<br />Is emptiness,<br />Cold comfort,<br />Loneliness.<br />And,<br />To be alive,<br />You need more.</span></span></div>CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-83479547054370338412012-04-26T15:42:00.000-07:002012-04-26T15:42:03.214-07:00CODE OF SILENCE by C.A. Jones<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: 12px;">Plod in the car park and </span></div>
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Plod on the stairs, </div>
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Plod on the landing,</div>
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Sitting on chairs;</div>
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Hoping to find them</div>
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A witness, or more,</div>
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To the bad altercation</div>
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Last night by the door.</div>
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We heard people shouting</div>
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At each other with hate,</div>
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Couldn't make out the words, </div>
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The hour was quite late;</div>
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Then screams and some crying</div>
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As one person snapped,</div>
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The blood-spattered floor</div>
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Could attest to that fact.</div>
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Yes, it was all go this morning,</div>
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Lots of Plod all around,</div>
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But I think they'll find no-one</div>
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Saw a thing or heard a sound...</div>
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<span style="color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">I went to the dentist. It was awful. I was expecting to have a tooth taken out on the left side. I hate injections so I was pretty tense. The dentist lowered the chair back til I was almost horizontal and began.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">She held the needle up and then pulled my lip back. But she was doing it on the right!!! I felt the panic start. I tried to breathe but I couldn't. Against my own volition I was grabbing the dentist's arm, trying to pull the needle out.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">The assistant grabbed my arm gently to stop me.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">"Just breathe, it won't be long," the dentist kept saying. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">I tried but my body wasn't having it. I was up on my heels and shoulders trying to push myself off the top of the chair. I was having a flashback!</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">With a tremendous effort of will, I made myself breathe deeply, stopped struggling, but could not let go of her - the dentist's - arm til the needle was out.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #444444;">It turned out I was not having the tooth out that time but a tiny filling on the right. re-action set in as she was doing the filling, I started to giggle uncontrollably. Then I actually dozed off for a minute and had to shake myself awake. </span></span><br />
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On the 29th January Dean said he was going to kill me, but that he would bugger me first! I slept holding the scissors that night. Two days later it came to a head. There was an argument and Dean threw me to the floor. I went to sit in my room. My bed is on the floor, which is how I prefer to sleep.<br />
The next half-hour is hazy except for the kicks. Dean was shouting he was going to kill me, then he burst into my room and started kicking me with his steel-toe-capped Doc Martens'. I tried to fight him off but I was on the floor and he just kept kicking me. He went into the other room and started smashing stuff again, muttering to himself and getting himself worked back up.<br />
I took advantage of this brief respite to grab my phone and dial 999. Dean heard me speak and rushed in., He then managed to land several kicks to my ribs as I held the phone. Then he launched himself on me, trying to wrench the phone from my hands.<br />
I kept hold of the phone and got the information across. When Dean realised this he got off me, kicked me a few more times, then got his coat and put it on, standing outside my open door. he was going to leave to avoid the police. He looked at me with venomous hatred and started to move towards me, I thought he wanted to finish me off, by the look on his face and the position of his hands. He looked as if he was going to strangle me. Just as he moved towards me there was a sharp rap on the door.<br />
"Open up! Police!" - a neighbour had called the police on account of the screaming and shouting.<br />
Dean then visibly replaced his expression to amiable and answered the door. I was in my room in pain and in shock. Dean and the PC went into the living room, which was a complete shambles from Dean attempting to break everything breakable in the whole flat.<br />
I could hear Dean coming out with his fantasy Idea of what I'D done and his natural reaction to it! I was gobsmacked at the vile shit he said about me to the Policeman in order to justify his actions. The PC had called another car and the other police came and took Dean away. The PC then interviewed me.<br />
I told him the truth, that I's stopped being Dean's partner two years previously as he kept hitting me. I had carried on being his carer, and we did occasionally sleep together, maybe three or four times in that two years. There was also the band to consider - Criminal Suicide Limited was and is, in my opinion the best thing since sliced bread.<br />
The fact that Dean is a genius but was never recognised as such by his family is the main reason he went mad, my rejection of him as a man finished him off. but what could I do. One cannot sustain sexual attraction through fear.<br />
The PC insisted on calling an ambulance because I had severe pain in my ribs. Thank god he did. I was so shocked and upset I would probably have just gone to bed. If I had just gone to bed i would have died. I had broken ribs and a punctured lung. Luckily it was a small puncture, but if I hadn't gone to hospital I would have ended up with a collapsed lung and probably have died. Died alone amid the debris of my life.<br />
I was in hospital for three days and pretty incapacitated by pain and painkillers for quite a while afterwards. I could not clear up the mess because of my ribs, though I tried and suffered for it.<br />
I could not stand it! A friend in<b> </b>Bristol - David Smith - suggested I come to his, straight away. I had been wanting to move to Bristol for a while and I was too scared to go out where I was, because Dean was out on bail, and staying with his parents just half a mile from me.<br />
I got my Incapacity Benefit on the Friday 2nd March and bought a ticket to Bristol - one way - for the following Monday.<br />
I was free of the fear at last! Another guy offered to share his flat with me until I got housed - Tony Ford - one of nature's true gentlemen. I am now awaiting a meeting next Thursday with a resettlement/support officer who will help me to get housed.<br />
I am happy. I haven't been happy before and I have to say that I like it! A life with only ordinary stress - Yes, that's for me. :)</div>CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-36997471943844773762011-12-31T01:42:00.000-08:002011-12-31T01:42:48.453-08:00NEW YEAR'S EVE BLOG 2011<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: black;">The time will come when greedy, materialistic people will be pitied for the sick, miserable wretches that they are. They don't have anything <u>except </u>money. They are empty and can never get enough to fill <u>that </u>void. There are always more things to acquire, newer things, necessary things...</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: black;">Now, don't get me wrong, <u>having </u>money is not a problem - <u>needing </u>money for a sense of who you are <u>is </u>a problem. <u>Loving </u>money and what it can get is a <u>BIG </u>problem. </span></span><span style="background-color: black; color: white;"> </span><span style="background-color: black; color: white;"> Most of the problems in the world could be easily solved if money were not the predominant idol - worshiped, prostrated before, obeyed without question.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: white;">Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness... Its called the American Dream because, according to George Carlin. quote- "you have to be asleep to believe it!"</span></div>CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-85209499263118388262011-12-28T13:42:00.001-08:002011-12-28T13:46:14.274-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><span style="background-color: black; color: white; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 14px;">Some years back, when I lived in N. Wales, One of my son's had a friend round after school. I asked if they'd like fish finger, chips and beans for tea? Both said yes with enthusiasm. They sat at the kitchen table looking at football cards or some such thing and I got the spuds from the pantry and put them in a bowl at the other end of the table. When the kid saw I was peeling them he asked me why? i said I was going to fry them as chips and carried on. His reaction was one of shock. He insisted that chips came frozen from Iceland and were cooked in the oven. Obviously he had to concede the point as the tea progressed but his faith in his Mother was shattered forever...</span> </div>CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-64631503788330141312011-12-28T12:18:00.000-08:002011-12-28T12:18:46.993-08:00THIS FOOD IS GONNA BE GREAT!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Today we are having oven-poached salmon in lemon juice with seasonings and trout smoked with juniper berrries.This is being made into a fish pie. With the salmon and trout in a rich creamy parsley sauce and covered with creamy mashed potato, served with boiled carrot sticks. I am dribbling like a baby... Its Dean's recipe this one so you'll have to wait for me to get the details so I can write it up.</div>CaroleAnneJoneshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01954564429461125288noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6881756751122922264.post-89734682034412539552011-12-18T14:10:00.000-08:002011-12-18T14:19:45.916-08:00WTF is happening?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: black;">And nowadays they don't stop at one. New boyfriend, new child, new break-up, new misery. It follows like b follows a. Children have many males in and out of their lives but no constant role models. Kids grow up and choose the wrong people themselves ad infinitum - ad nauseum.</span></span><br />
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